al⋅le⋅go⋅ry 

/ˈæləˌgɔri, -ˌgoʊri/  [al-uh-gawr-ee, -gohr-ee] 

–noun, plural -ries.

1.  a representation of an abstract or spiritual meaning through concrete or material forms; figurative treatment of one subject under the guise of another.
2. a symbolical narrative: the allegory of Piers Plowman.
3. emblem (def. 3).

Origin:
1350–1400; ME allegorie < L allēgoria < Gk allēgoría, deriv. of allēgoreîn to speak so as to imply something other. See allo-, agora; Gk agoreúein to speak, proclaim, orig. meant to act (e.g., speak) in the assembly

Synonyms:
2. fable, parable.

flour·ish  /ˈflɜrɪʃ, ˈflʌr-/ [flur-ish, fluhr-]

-verb (used without object)

1. to be in a vigorous state; thrive: a period in which art flourished.

4. to grow luxuriantly, or thrive in growth, as a plant.

Origin:
1250–1300; Middle English florisshen  < Middle French floriss-,  long stem of florir  ≪ Latin flōrēre  to bloom, derivative of flōs flower

—Synonyms:
grow, increase, thrive, blossom

I have just felt weird about everything. When I don’t start off the day with God the whole day feels wrong. I did nothing today, but break my TV fast and eat and clean up a tiny bit. I let the simplest things keep me from God.

I talked to my best friend yesterday and I’m thinking about meeting with a woman from her church who has been in similar situations as me, as far as the abuse and emotional problems. I’ve been thinking about it today. I need to pray about it some more, but I think I want to do it. Scary.

I sent David another e-mail :( I wrote down the list of reasons why He and I shouldn’t be together or in communication…then I sent the list to him. (ironic, I know) He’s confused. I am too. After the second day was so easy. I thought the rest would be too. But I am very sad.

Another of my best friends is suicidal and I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. We don’t get to talk often. I might invite her to lunch or dinner to talk. I don’t know. I have no resources to help her with besides prayer. She feels like it’s a burden to call anyone when she is feeling depressed. I just need to reach out first. Jesus, help.

• the moon and all it’s phases
• good food and fellowship
• friends who don’t judge
• old acquaintances

Our relationship was not healthy or God honoring, but I miss it…well I miss him. I wish I did not, but I am human and more than human, I’m a clingy woman. I told two of my best friends about our entire relationship and what has been happening lately (us never speaking again) and they could not believe that I was keeping it all to myself for such a long time. Almost five years and I only just told them Friday. (Still working on opening up to others…)

My best friend suggested that I make a list of reasons why our relationship didn’t work. When I think back about us, it is SO easy for me to be nostalgic and remember all the good times and wonder why we ever broke up, but there are very good reasons why I ended it and I don’t need to forget them. I love that she thought for me to do that. I’ll probably be crying the entire time, but I’ll probably do it now, if I can stay awake or in the morning.

I wish I didn’t miss him anymore.

• food
• family that doesn’t judge